我的精神生理期

我正值精神生理期，生活节奏随着我的思绪跳跃而不正常，主要表现有：

* 承受力极度下降。风吹起我的头发我嫌躁，别人碰了我的包包我说“靠”！

* 讨厌人群，又害怕独处。想离开一如既往逗留的热闹，又祈祷埃及王子会捡起我掉在地上的钱包。

* Defence Defence Defence!!! 我想一路杀掉全世界！~却发现每个人的眼中都有把利剑。

* 腰杆直不起来，我需要依靠。

* 我不想多说，但别跟我白话(huo). 给我另一支耳朵，你也要听我数落。

* 饮食紊乱，什么都吃，又什么都不想吃~

* 对好朋友不爽——知道会是暂时，但现在就想计较。

* 跟爸爸聊天，好想好想哭~觉得还是家里最好。

还有很多很多……

不知道什么时候会过去。

知道这只是精神生理期，就如同每个月定时到访的姨娘，来了，也会离开，下次依然再来。可姨娘会欣赏我买的面包，精神生理期却不好打发，我不知如何圆场。

姨娘会体贴的对我说，体育课可以不上，尽管在篮球架下晒太阳。但精神生理期，我还要继续奔忙。

可以同女友聊姨娘的脾气。但精神生理期，我没人可以分享。

明知迟早会过去，但此时的疼痛和感觉的异样……哎~至少我知道不可以着凉， 不然后果会更不堪设想。

匆匆划过

你悄悄划过的眼神
连空气都没被划破
却刺痛我的心窝

你匆匆摆过的前额
连阳光都没被折射
却着实让我悔过

悔过不该给你那么多，那么多的
许诺
只换来沉默，冷漠，还有寂寞
于是我感到了感情的赤裸
而你却换上了新式的凉拖

---近来越发觉得脆弱与坚强就差一念，很多人虽然还在眼前，但一闪念间逃过的眼神让我感到困惑。用文字祭奠一下，埋葬这份迷惘，毕竟很多事情自己没办法一直求索。那就解脱！就像这样~

tired

i'm tired and exsaused....

月圆人未圆，佳节倍思亲~

today is mid autumn day.....中秋节，北京应该有凉爽的秋风带走最后一丝夏日的留恋了吧。well, mid autumn day, how can i celebrate. tonight is meant for family reunion, but i'm away from home, from my dearest papa n mama. well girl, be strong!

no mooncake, no gathering, my mid autumn day night is packed with projects, books and deadlines. well it's my life i know, for whatever i suposed to do and i've chosen to do, i'll commit and do it. to make each day count, to make every step a meaningful one.

月圆人未圆，佳节倍思亲。i'm sure my parents will be happy to know that i'm trying my best to enjoy life. life is too short, just like the joyful and lovely mid autumn day. i'll enjoy as much as i can, even the longliness and frustration coming along my way. they are all gifts from life, and they are all beautiful when i learn something from each of them.

DANce is the way I BREATHE !!!

I LOVE DANce, and I wanna DANce when i'm happy or sad. DANcing can set my soul free.
It really does!

i can't really recall the first dance lesson that i had. it should be when i was 4 or 5 years old in kindergarden. i was picked up to be trained and perform for children's day celebrationon, so that was how my dancing life started.

i didn't feel the passion of dance in me at that time, since i was just a little girl who always played around. but i knew i was having fun with other dance mates, we looked at each other in the mirror, stretched here and there and gave very cute smiles along the music. and the teacher said, "beautiful!" i felt happy, i felt good! on the day i was performing, i was so excited in the custum of a little yellow bird, wearing make up with my hair tied up. dad was taking pictures of me all the time, and i was smiling and laughing in front of the camera, clapping and jumping just like a happy yellow bird!

maybe dad realized my potential to dance, maybe he just realized that dancing could turn me so happy, he signed up a beginners' dance course for me in sunday school (少年宫) in the neighbourhood. so that was the time when i started professional training in dance, sitll 4 or 5 years old maybe. mom bought me a whole set of dance attire, black tight top with colorful lines accorss the front body, white dance pants and pink ballet shoes. i was proudly standing among 50 little ballerinas in the dance studio. when the piano started, we moved, and stretched.

but the joy of dance never comes with ease. the trainning was professional, that means we dance with sweats and tears. the teacher turned out to be horrible and fearful when she held our tiny bodies to stretch further. "do your split... lenthen your legs, and bend! " i cried all the time when she "hurt" me, god it was so painful and i just cried as a defence!

i quited the dance course and didn't touch the dance bar in the studio for 6 years. for no reason, i didn't want to learn a single step and move as a dancer. this little girl was damn determined about this at that time. only until i went to middle school, i suddenly realized that my soul was lightened up in the dance studio again!

dance lesson was essential for every one from primary to junior middle school 2. we learned chinese dance, ballet, hip hop and modern dance in class, which build up my versatile foundation in movement. i also joined the school dance team to get more intensive trainning and performed! it was amazing to shine in front of your peers, and one more thing, only dancers were allowed to keep their long hair^_* (our school was pretty strict about hair style, which we thought was awkward. girls were not suposed to keep long hair, sucks man! >_<) i was pretty sure that i am borned to be a dancer only until that time, i enjoyed myself and felt confident in front of the mirror and on stage! ----to be continued----

假日北京^^

2005年的5月到8月，我在北京渡过了一个漫漫暑假。和家人共处的三个月里，体会北京的夏日给了我无限轻松。那份假日闲情，是天空晴朗的透明蓝色，是傍晚悠扬的一抹红霞，是夜色托起的串串街灯，是无限畅神的缕缕炊烟。我最爱北京夏日六七点钟的黄昏时刻，华灯初上，天空刚罩上蒙蒙的黑纱；下班的人群穿梭于红绿灯的变换之间，而我停驻在路边垂柳荡漾的柔波里。将自己融进这份都市的忙碌和喧哗，又自由的游离在尘嚣外的宁静空气。我喜欢。在周围一切的现代追逐中，我喜欢被繁华的交响乐托起，而独自欣赏内心的平静。

正是这份平静，给了我离开的勇气。北京是我起锚的地方，那里的空气和尘埃都已化为浓浓的乡情，融进我的血液和骨髓，在我的身体里流淌。有了这份惦念，我可以走向任何地方，只要我清楚自己的方向。

可能自己最终都不会属于任何地方——就如心神以往的北京，我的故土，最后我还是要离开他，继续前行的。可能自己最终能坚定的属于自己，属于自己心底的真实，属于自己独有的平静。

假日北京，你给我的不止是驻足间的留恋，还有再次启航的信念。我相信，自己的发稍已萦绕着你的气质，自己的眉目间能流露出你的神采，是你塑造了独一无二的我，又把我送向无尽的远方。你淡淡的闲情已被我收起，疗伤时，黄昏的温柔会是我最大的慰籍，于你共度的分秒片断，会是我途中最美的光亮。