我要回家！

我要回家！！

我要回家！！！

回味单身——没有男人的圣诞夜

谁说女人一定要有男人？我们单身，我们也美丽，不为别人，我们是我们自己。单身的女人会乞讨拯救？错，没有男人的世界我们放纵不需要理由。

就要敲开2006 ^_*

2006，新的一年！想起孙悦的歌：

这一年总的说来,高兴的事儿挺多,
家人不错,朋友不错,自己也不错.
看着日历总不忍心把最后一页翻过,

因为要告别快乐的一年,都有点舍不得.

自从来到这个热带国度，每一年都不同。截然不同的经历，随之而各异的生活态度，让我的2002、2003、2004和2005都各有各的精彩。我曾经孤苦、迷茫、颤抖……还有好多好多怀疑，怀疑自己还有多少希望，怀疑我当初离开的脚步，怀疑还有没有未来……离开家之前很难想象生活可以有如此多的变化，也从没想过能经历这些然后再站起来，成为今天的自己。我的2005是怎样的呢？

2005，我有了一颗能安抚自己的心，一个懂得重新善待自己、乐观生活的自我。因此，我把握住了一个人，一个和我很像、又能给我支撑和希望的人。他不是我曾经幻想的命运的使者、灾难的救世主，遇到他我也没有太多的眼泪和抱怨去挥洒和倾诉。相反，世界因此变得简单透明。感觉像回到小时候，很容易快乐，有了一个布娃娃就有了全部幸福。他就像我的布娃娃，一个守住他就能守住我心底的踏实和开心的大大大大的布娃娃。

2005，我的大学生活要进入尾声。学校的一切仿佛都被我种下了一份依恋，图书馆、canteen、LT、走廊、操场，还有路边的叶子、校车拐弯处的夕阳。2005年，我开始发现周围的一切都是那么美，走在回房间的路上，我想拥抱眼前校园里的一切。我的大学给了我一个女子走入自主的第一课，挫折、压力、甚至歧视、绝望，把灵魂摔入谷底然后再用手指扒在岩石缝隙一点点往上攀爬。这一路向上得很慢，但这让我有足够的时间欣赏沿途的风景。

2005，在北京的我搬进了新家。告别十五层的空中楼阁，我们拥有连接地平线的稳定。突然间很喜欢做家庭主妇，打扫、烧饭、浇花、洗衣都变成了享受。安排自己的生活空间就像打造一个新的自己，让我这个从学生宿舍的方块空间中爬出的大学女生有了居家的安全感。我想回家，也想把他带到我的小空间去。家的归属的感觉，没错。

2005，我的足迹走过马来西亚的金马伦、KL、萤火虫公园。2005我拥有北京的夏天，还有夜上海的霓虹和青岛傍晚的浪漫海滩。还想去很多很多地方，野心也很大，但我清楚，要好好生活、好好干，这样才能把握美丽的地方和可爱的人，还有身边的小幸福。这一年，2005，你给了我太多美好和收获，也让我种下更多期待。期待更多的朋友、期待更远的地方、期待和他一起的更多的日子、期待我的家人和自己能够更好……就要敲开2006，把2005最后的祝福写下来，送给冥冥中期待它们的人：

- 27th Dec 恩~~圣诞假期后的上班第一天，DJ和我都要开心 =) 加油！ 恩，下班后会去看电影么？
- 28th Dec 路，生日快乐！真没想到四年没见，春节相聚要开香槟了！祝贺你征服美利坚凯旋！
- 29th Dec 妈妈，生日快乐！你永远是我的漂亮妈妈！女儿要做和你一样乐观、美丽、坚强的女人！也希望能做一个像你一样的好妈妈 ^_^
方方，生日快乐！有你这样的妹妹是一种幸福！下次去上海还要带我逛街哦！祝你越来越漂亮，good luck girl!
- 30th Dec Henry, 生日快乐！还在拼命工作？加油！你是好样儿的！
- 31st Dec New Year’s Eve…Happy 2006 and Happy EVERYDAY!
* 阿萌，北京假期过的好么？一月还来？我等着你！
* Dear YoYo! Long time no see…大家都有能守住的幸福了，重色轻友不是咱们的风格，哪天一起去切台？
* 小猪，回家的感觉好么？北京肯定特爽吧？回来要给我讲！
* 诗皓流浪人，澳洲漫游归来，你总有美女缘，我会嫉妒的你知道么！嗯~~我想唱歌！回来要叫我去楼下吃面:p你不在我一直没吃。
* 岳飞很聪明，在香港吧？Disney的童话世界有白马王子么？要开学了，怎么面对Mr.容…（抱歉打扰你的度假心情）
* 一清，all the best for your exams! 我开学的日子是你假期的开始，哈哈好讽刺阿。去拥抱你的假期吧！祝你有好运和好心情！^_^
* 爸爸，春节我会回家，嘿嘿就快了。
……
*给我自己：2006的愿望，要把痘痘消灭干净！ 要健康！——最好还能变苗条…谁说开心的女人就会发胖，我偏不信这个邪！！！减肥！！！

就要敲开2006，我还有好多好多没说，好多好多没做……

困……

I'm so sleepy at work now...
QSFTA signing ceromony is over, I'm suposed to start my Kuwait project.
Just now had a good lunch with 3 other fellow interns, then I bought kaya toast for dessert.
as usual, we went to the recreation room, I sat on the masage chair for 15 minutes, then play table soccor and pool with them. Luckily we didn't bet Teh Tarik this time....I've treated the other team once already, yeah we lose last time during table soccor. I'm a lousy player...so must play safe, no betting!
emm...Kuwait....FDI...G-G...inflows & outflows... seems like the time when i studied econs...haha, but now it's more interesting, i'm sure!
shall i go n get Milo? then my pimples will get worse, but i'm really sleepy lei.....
this evening i'm gonna go swimming...
bf is not around....
ah...data analysis...never thought i would be able to touch this. but now it's my job, seriously i don't know how to do..
shall i go n ask my boss? he's super busy now...shall i disturb him?
such a sleepy afternoon, and i'm at work now.

Last Minute Change---- The Middle East Style

Well, this is the first lesson I’ve learned since I work in IE Singapore. After spending almost one month organizing the Qatar- Singapore Free Trade Signing Ceremony, at the last minute we are informed, it’s all canceled. What the…! One day only to the event, for which takes one month’s effort for our entire Middle East team to plan, now it’s all gone just because the Qatar people.. VIP.. yah whatever CANNOT MAKE IT!!! Damn…

I took over the organizing work of this ceremony from another intern at the time I joined IE, and it took me days to keep track of the updating guest list. I just sit inside my cubicle and emailing all our clients like crazy, at the same time answer inquiries from various companies over the phone. Sometimes I couldn’t find the contact information of a certain company, so I browsed through the IE intranet, internet, yellow pages and all my boss’s name cards. Just to make a single phone call or send out the invitation via email, it took me nearly half an hour to find out the contact, well that’s the longest it took me, I was kinda lousy at this : p For my boss it was even worse. Since our big boss was on leave last week, he had to take over everything up from decision making down to overseeing the detailed planning. At the first place we were expecting at least 150 guests could turn up, and we were kind of worried if we couldn’t get enough attendees. But later from the hotel side we were told that extra charge would occur if the total number exceeds 120, then we were pulling hair to watch out the tight vacancies to squeeze the guests list. Well, to expand was easy, but to minimize it’s a bit tough coz we had to decide which guess could be the more important one. Moreover, the changes of the program, VIP list, blah blah blah…miscommunication between my boss and the big boss, as well as between the previous intern and me all took place. Technical problems also came as I need to access others’ email account but somehow couldn’t get it. Fortunately, before I finished work yesterday, everything was almost done. The final program had been sent, the guest list had been confirmed, and every preparation was perfectly done. Although I felt a bit sick sitting in from of the computer screen for days, and my eyes were painful every time I finished work, I felt good after we had cleared up all those massy stuff. I was looking forward to this Thursday to welcome over 100 guests at the registration table.

However, before I turned on my computer this morning, the big boss came to me and said, “Denise, u know tomorrow’s event is cancelled, coz the Qatar minister can’t make it. Last minute change…” I was like, “what the….”!!! “Well it’s like that one, those Middle East people…sometimes they don’t care coz they are so rich.” Doreen told me in typical Singlish, “Maybe to China they care, coz China is so big. But Singapore…they always like that one…” Hah…days of effort are gone, that’s what it means. But that’s not the end of the story. I have to do the follow ups to email every guest about the cancellation. “We can’t afford if anyone turn up tomorrow.” The big boss insisted. My boss is on MC today since he has been stressed up in the past few days. Poor guy, he has been OT almost every day since I came.

I was thinking about the work I’ve done while emailing today. Realized that lots of lessons I have learned, I don’t feel that pissed off when I firstly heard the news. Last minute change is the Middle East style, so dealing with Arabs really needs lots of patience, and whoever is dealing with them has to be really on the toe. Anything can happen in work, it’s not as simple as study and doing exams in school. It requires people to be very alert at work to face all the changes, especially to be mentally strong. That needs emotional stability, I can not be the first person to cry when anything unexpected or unhappy happens. It’s no use man. And flexibility! flexibility!! I must switch on more than one channel in my mind to look after several things at the same time, phone call, changes of plans, our customers' and clients’ requirement and our own constrains. Sometimes when I was talking over the phone and at the same time my boss was assigning me new contacts to do follow up. Girl you’d better react fast! I need to be a stretchable rubber ban at work, but I must know where's my limit. Moreover, what I have to prepare at work to physically enable myself for the challenges are:

- Eye drops: to kill my eye pain!!
- Lots of lots of water: drink more to relax and get more chances to go wash room. Daddy says: “上班也要学会偷懒。不会偷懒也就不会努力。”It makes sense!
- Moisturizer: sitting in the air con office hourly really dries out my skin, especially my hands.
- Emm… what else? 想起来再加吧。

Although the QSFTA signing ceremony is canceled and I know my job is actually the basic admin or secretary work which any idiot can do, I do learned something from this experience. At least I know what our clients are, lots of company names I’ve never heard before. And from the way that the employee talks at the other end of the phone, I can tell that whether it is a good established company or a lousy one. Sweet voice in a polite manner does show the company’s good image, but some secretary’s rudeness and impatience really spoil their reputation. So if you are setting up your own company, do get a nice 小秘 or reception with adorable voice, coz it’s the company’s face.

Today is my eighth day at work, emm not bad after writing this, or maybe bcoz my boss is not around, haha. The Qatar ceremony is kinda over, next will be my proper research project on Kuwait. Well, be prepared to start tomorrow when my boss is back!

给自己加油，A Za A Za Fighting!!!

一封家书

爸爸妈妈：

你们好么？

今天是我打工第三天，哈哈，已经很多收获了，只是还没时间跟你们好好分享。上班的感觉就是不一样！

我所在的公司——新加坡国际企业发展局，是新加坡贸易与工业部下属的商贸开拓机构，就是新加坡和海外各地商贸合作的中间人。我被分到了国际业务部，下属于南亚、中东和非洲的业务处。我的老板是一个很年轻的新加坡男人，长得还不错，也就三十出头吧，就做到senior officer的位置，挺能干的。从星期一我刚来他就一直很忙，也没有太具体的东西分配给我。我有了自己独立的办公桌，公司给我用一台笔记本，我就坐在老板后面。

第一天没什么太多东西，主要是熟悉环境。老板给了我一份他未完成的project, 将近50多张power point slides，是关于科威特的经济、投资环境和商贸情况的报告。我第一次看到如此详尽的报告，他去科威特实地考察后花了两三个月才出来这50多张，而且政府间合作的部分还没做完，也就落在了我的肩上。我用头两天看他做好的slides,学到很多东西。以前对中东和科威特没什么太深的了解，就知道那里有石油、老打仗，现在正好补补这方面的知识，而且对那边的商贸情况有了更深的了解。那里并不像我原来想象的那么穷。相反，中东是新加坡投资合作的一块肥肉。

22号公司有个大型的本地企业招待会，我从明天开始要接过联络工作，确认参会公司、人数等等，当天还要在会场帮忙。昨天晚上挺惊险的，下班前半个小时老板给我一份紧急任务，今天（星期三），海湾金融中心的CEO转机新加坡，要来这里开个小会，老板让我帮他准备presentation slides。 我一开始有点蒙，但是幸亏工作不难，我只需要按照他的要求作几个改动而已。但即使是一个小小的Presentation, 老板还是一遍又一遍的检查、核对，每个细节的拼法、甚至国旗都要确认万无一失。跟我们上课presentation就是不一样，学校里大家就是为了一个成绩，有点小错没人太在意，也没人这样仔细的核对。工作就不一样了，严谨多了，毕竟这是公司的脸和自己的饭碗，丢不得。

今天从早到中午我都跟着老板在忙接待那个中东的大鼻子CEO，Esam Janahi。我完全没想到自己这个不起眼的实习生居然也能坐在高层的会客室里，经历商务洽谈，还能跟来自巴林的CEO握手。恩，中东人不是不跟女人握手么？他们的宗教习惯难道也国际化了？他们聊了很多，什么金融合作、新加坡在中东的投资、巴林新建的金融中心。我很兴奋，觉得新鲜、好玩。回来要做会议纪录……就不那么好玩了。不过我做行政有耐心，弄些纪录阿报告什么的不觉得烦，所以还ok。

公司的同事都挺好相处，而且还有五六个大学实习生，很多也都来自国大，是我的junior。午餐时间我们一块儿去找办公楼周围的好吃的，聊天交流挺有趣！每天我就穿着长袖衬衣、西裤、踩着高跟鞋往返于学校和办公室，在地铁上下、马路东西穿梭。新加坡的上班族确实紧张，也累。看看清晨体铁车厢里满脸倦容的人们，就能知道大家都背着一副生存的担子，究竟有多沉只有自己知道。我将来也会这样么？也许那是没有办法的事。但我告诉自己，即使再忙再累再无奈，也要把握身边小小的快乐；不管我做什么，都要爱着自己的生活，爱着爱我的人们。而且想到将来会有一群一群的孩子们让我爱着，自己的母爱就忍不住小泛滥一下。希望我不会被青春期的少男少女们气倒，但我相信，他们会留住我永远的花季和雨季。

我和达杰挺好的，在马来西亚一路都很开心，特别是吉隆坡的一天，跟可爱的人来到可爱的城市，我心里又在臭美了！今天下班后我们去看电影，还要去老巴沙吃晚餐。听说是关于北京世界公园运作的一部纪录片，我坚持要看 : p爸爸不是差点去那儿么？幸亏没去，世界公园到最后亏损得利害。上个星期日我们看了张学友、周迅和金成武主演的《如果爱》，音乐剧，画面不错，有些手法挺有感觉，但是音乐不好，而且情节一般。下个周末应该去看《无极》。嘻嘻，电影好像都是我在做主。唯一不开心的事，就是痘痘了……很无奈，时好时坏，最近不太好，疼~这一度把我的自信打入谷底。他不在意，只是我在意……但还是告诉自己，就算变老变丑变胖，也决不能不漂亮！！！哎呀，管别人怎么想呢，我就是这个样子，爱看就看，不爱看更好，省得那么显眼。

北京冷么？很冷吧，多穿衣服多喝水。要有大风降温流感什么的就别老出门，但房间通风要紧。我好想下大雪的北京阿，吃糖葫芦，打雪仗，照相……还有我的靴子。圣诞将至，又要我一个人过了，习惯了也就无所谓了。达杰和家人出行，我在房间里看《浪漫满屋》——韩剧，好看！本来想趁圣诞降价去购置上班族的行头，现在看来，能省则省吧。妈妈，我就等着回去挑你的漂亮衣服和套装了！

你们注意身体，这个周末我去舞蹈营，抽空儿给你们打电话！

勿念~!

丹丹 = )

NEVER try to be a good girl...!!!

~~don't ask me why~~